cycles.

reaching that part of the cycle again...
the part i'd rather not deal with.

i dont know what i need, God,
but i need something. desperately.

show me that You're working through all this.

kutless.

i've seen 
dreams that move the mountains
hope that doesn't ever end
even when the sky is falling


&i've seen
miracles just happen
silent prayers get answered
broken hearts become brand new


that's what faith can do...


(=

30min.

i know i wont die.
God, i desperately need
courage, wisdom, stremgth, peace,
& a lot of good guessing.
help me not to be scared.
its so silly. just one test,
& i cant even get this right.
it feels impossible,
but You work through these
situations. im learning at least.

everything happens for a reason.

again.

dear God, i screwed up. again.
the harder i try,
the more i fail.

i dont understand... =[

nothing satisfies.
only
You.

verse.

bible gateway's verse of the day:

“Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."

- psalm 27:14

perfect.

good.

everything You do is for the good.

thank You so much for giving me the opportunity to meet with p. shiyon. for having gongs initiate it. for the lovely talk with ecpark. for friends who love me. for the dinner i'll be having with silkyy. for bible study on friday. for the fun & craziness on friday night. for the tears that made me realize.....

YOU ARE SO GOOD.
so, very good.

exhaustion.

physically.
&mentally.

its cold here too =[

God, help me pull through.
all for Your glory right?
help me not to procrastinate next time.

FIGHTING! (:

fail.

again &again
&again &again.

im hopeless without You.

motivation & hope.

i am lacking in these two things.
give me strength
to do the things i dont want to do.

i dont know why i feel so empty...

this world is so
temporary.

surprises.

thank You for the surprisingly unexpected, good day.


You are amazing God
Your love's unending.

i smiled many times today (:

must.do.QTs.
forgive me for that...

You are so funny.
i cant even explain ..? [=

humor.

God, You are hilarious sometimes.
but of course You know that.

this will be good for me.
maybe a test?

dear God,

strength.
self control.
wisdom.
patience.
love.
contentedness.

this is hard.
so very hard.


sometimes it feels weird constantly talking about me.
even about how messed up i am.
feels a bit self-centered.

FAIL. i fail.
God, i need You.
save me.

refresh.

virtual record of my walk with God.

what my moleskine was supposed to be.
if only i could write as fast as i thought
without my hands cramping up.

One Desire.